Or a vacation. To Italy. With Hakim. Yea, that sounds nice.
I need a fucking vacation from all this family madness, you know why? Because sometimes I don't even feel like a family member in 'my family' if all they do is do stuffs without me. And when we go shopping 'together', I will be that one 'family member' who's left behind. And I don't want that. Daniel gets everything and I mean everything. An iPhone, but he broke it and now he gets an iPhone 5. A Nikon 5100 but he lost it, and now he is getting a Nikon D90. He got an Alienware as his birthday present. And dad? Dad gets a freaking S4 simply because "oh you know what I like the S3 I think it's cool but S4 is out so let me just say that I like it and mum will gift me that phone". And what do I get? I get pressure. Why? PMR is just around the corner, my friends always argue, my parents always shout at me, my brother likes to make me mad and I get asked questions I don't know how to answer to from strangers or people. I don't even know if 'my family' cares about what I feel. They make me upset by thinking I've made them upset by making me upset. That's sad-ception right there. All they put me through is depression and loneliness. I don't get the love I deserve from a family and now, I really feel like dying. So thanks a lot, guys.
